Saving For The Future. (Mini Personal Achievement!)

Hello my lovelies. How have you guys been this crazy week? Its went by really fast for me. One day it was the end of the weekend, now it’s my weekend again. This is gonna be a some what chatty post today.

Welp lets jump right into it before I squeal with excitment. (Before I go any futher, Im not bragging in the slightest kay.) This year me and the other half made the agreement that we are going to save for our own house. We are currently renting and lets be honest, while the area is nice its not a place we want to be long term. Or if we plan on expanding our family.

So I have had problems with saving for years. (Money grabbing parents who where not ready for 3 extra mouths to feed and guilt tripped the cash outta us.) But I finally did something I wanted to do for ages. Since I was 18. Drum roll please…………

I FINALLY SAVED £1000!!!!!!

Eeek. After months of on/off work. Being worried sick and feeling completely useless I finally reached a milestone that I had wanted for just under 8 years. And it feels amazing. 😄

I may be a little tighter fisted with my cash now, and even questioning if I need things when I’m shopping or out and about. We are even home cooking meals for work which is amazing for the both of us. I’m just so happy and proud of myself. Very pleased to see that all the hard work that I’m putting in is finally amounting to something.

And I wanted to share this excitment with you guys.

Until next time my lovelies.

Xx

Life Lessons I’ve Learned Since Taking The Rose Coloured Glasses Off.

Okay. Time for a deep (ish) blog post. Life lessons and the one’s I learned the hard way. Or simply noticed as I got older and less inclined to listen to bullshit. Let me know which ones you knew or ones I may not mention in the comments. Its always good to learn more.

1. People and success. The mass majority of people in your life really don’t want you to succeed at all. They want you to do well but not better than them. And thats a scary thing to accept. It hit me when my mum would smug over the fact that I didn’t get tbe job I wanted or when I went through my times of unemployment.

2. The only person you can actually count on is yourself in this world. Too many people will expect something or some form of payment in return if they help you. And some peoplejust can not be counted on in the least.

3. Your gonna lose some people. Whether that’s cause people have moved away, grown apart or a little fight that has grown ugly. Sometimes it’s a good thing to leave people behind and others your gonna miss like crazy. But unfortunalety it happens. If you have people you want to keep in your life then keep them there.

4. The world will try to make you feel ashamed of your beliefs. Stick to your guns and you beliefs. Don’t let anyone change you or tell you how to act. We are all awesome and should be allowed to feel awesome.

5. Being an adult can suck. Like seriously can I go back to being a kid please? Try and keep those childish hobbies alive. You like pokemon?? Fantastic so do I. You like collecting stamps. That’s awesome. What about that secert love for dinosaurs? Don’t be afraid of sharing your passions and hobbies with others.

6. Last but not least. Learn how to love yourself. It will be the greatest thing you will ever do. I’m perfect for me and only me. I love my flaws and scars. My history aint pretty but it has made me how I am. I’ll be honest with you I used to hate myself. But now I love myself and who I am, from my tattooed ankles all the way to my button nose.

Really enjoyed writing this little ranty like post. Do you agree with any of these? Have you got any that you would like to share, let folk know in the comments.

Until next time my lovelies.

Xx

Who Am I. (A Personal List) 

Who am I? Hmm that’s an easy question I guess. I could give you details like my name, age and birthday. But what can you really learn from that!? What do we really know about people from what we see and hear? Let me tell ya, not very much. We see a different person every single time. The workaholic, the worrier, the quiet one. 

Let me tell you lovely people who I am. 

  • I can saves lives with some of my training. First Aid, siezure’s and many more. 
  • I’m an older sister, younger sister, daughter, aunt, lover, partner, friend, bestfriend, a teacher, a student, a lost soul and a growing hatchling. 
  • I risked my life for someone else’s. It was a scary moment and I didn’t have time to think. I just moved. 
  • Emotions hate me. I feel them far too deeply at times and other times I’m like ice. 
  • I don’t care for excuses and lies. If your gonna do something then go do it. Either be honest or get out my face. 
  • A chatter box most the time really but sometimes I love my silence. It calms my nerves and brings me back to a steadier mental moment. But it has to be silence that I choose.
  • Being the middle child I got the hot end of the metal pike. When the sister’s fucked up I got the heat. 10 fold. 
  • I have very little time for unmotivated, moany people. I can not deal with it at all and will cut them from my life if need be. 
  • My personality scares people and has made some feel intimated by me. Good. I’m a strong, passionate woman who loves life and my work. Not my fault at the end of the day. 
  • I over think everything. Then I need to pinch myself before I cause any unnessacary drama. 

    These are just the surface of who I am. Kinda hope this helps others realise that they are so much more than just a name or a number. We are complicated creatures at the end of the day. 

    Until next time my lovelies. 

    Xx

    Letter to My Little Dragon

    Just recently I got a call about you. Picking up the phone I was filled with excitment, thinking of what to get you for your birthday. Then the news of a bomb shell dropped along with my mood and stomach. 

    It was over. The battle at this moment in time was over. And I really had no idea what to say. I spoke to your mum, to understand from her point of view. While I may not agree completely with her, I am not her. She could no longer cope with the onslaught of negativity and in a simple term abuse. And as she spoke I knew it must have been difficult for her to make that desicion. Your mum is still there in your life just not playing as active a role. 

    If I’m honest I still can’t get my head round it all. We where so close little dragon, so damn close. But alas this time I must hang up my sword and shield little dragon. I had thought of going on with the fight but knew I was in no postion to aid you. Plus I would have a great deal more on my hands. 

    My dear little dragon, I miss you and I hope to see you again. When?? I do not know, but know that this old dragon will welcome you with open arms. 

    This is a fight that I must walk away from and sadly let you go. Its beyond difficult but it is for the best. It’s what is best for you my little dragon. 

    Until I see you again little one. 

    Love this old dragon.

    Xx